Cycle

Every time once i let my guards down shit happens. . Every time the same thing strikes over and over and over again. Every time after I felt that you've changed a little, yes even a little matters; you go ahead and fucking ruin everything. Wow, when will you ever know that it's not us that has given up on you, but rather "you" giving yourself up?! I'm seriously on the edge of breaking, giving up. You really don't get it do you?/ You don't realise that you're already very, very fortunate. It's quite sad actually, that I'm here; i'm the one saying this right now. Do you really have to lose what you have now, before understanding the importance of it? Maybe, just maybe if that's the case then.....sigh* oh never mind just forget it; that's what you always say anyway.